Ice Cream

I woke up today at 5:30. Too early since my class doesn't start til one in the afternoon. But I couldn't go back to sleep. Everyone was still soundly asleep. I stared outside the window -- it was dark, too dark to be five in the morning. Winter solstice. I felt the gloom build up inside me. I'm not really a big fan of the dark. Gloom took over my morning. I decided not to let that show so I curled up with one of my favorite books, New Moon by Stephenie Meyer. But, it didn't help at all! As a matter of fact, it made everything worse. Edward's absence left me more upset than I already was. As the hours pass, mom had to leave for work and I am now home alone. Our small apartment suddenly felt like a huge mansion. The emptiness was building inside me again. But I didn't want to go to school yet. It was too early. So I decided to play with my clothes a little. Finally, I picked up my favorite blue jeans and my cream blouse, pulled my hair in a half pony tail, and left for school. When I got out of the house, I felt my inside change. I just realized that the day wasn't so gloomy after all. The sun was shining high up, and for the record, I didn't trip on something today (although I almost got hit by bicycles -- three times!). When I got to school I had a cup of vanilla ice cream with a close friend, just to pass the time since I am early for class; that's when I realized that simple things like ice cream can really make up my day. After a little chat, I went to my classroom and I no longer felt the gloom that ate up my morning. I was happy with my friends, and, can you believe it, math. I love math classes when I could easily understand the lesson. I only have one class today, so I went home early. I beat mom and everyone else home. I was alone again in the once gloomy lair, but this time the apartment didn't seem too big. It was just right. I felt no need for loneliness even though I am clearly alone. I don't understand it either, but ice cream surely made up my day =]