Balance

Two months. That is all the time I get for being happy. My one shot of happiness just missed. It's either that or I am just not meant to be happy. Who knows, maybe I was born to be lonely forever. Maybe there is some sort of law that states that the happiness on Earth needs to be balanced. My happiness was tipping the scale, so they just had to take it back. Well, good job! The world is balanced again. It's time for me to wallow in sadness again while the rest of the world continues to be happy and productive. I don't really mind loneliness. It is something familiar to me now. It has been my companion for over a year, and yes, my life still went on. This time though, what makes me sadder is the fact that I already knew how it felt to be happy, to smile genuinely all day long. Though, if I were to be glad over my sadness, it would be about one thing. It would be the knowledge that you would not be stuck with me. I'd accept that whole-heartedly. I have always known you are too good for me. You don't deserve me. You deserve someone much better, and with that I am happy.