My Very Own Edward

Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. I was reading it this morning and I've never read a book so fast before. I just started this morning and I'm currently at page 313 XD Anyways, that's not my point for today's blog. Today it's all about my very own Edward. Well, you don't just meet a guy like that everyday, right? You know, the kind of guy who just shows up whenever you need him. Once, I thought I met my very own. I was recovering from a very public breakup I had during the past summer when I met him.(not really. I met him years before that since we were school mates, yet this was the only time I got to know him) It wasn't as awkward as what happened to Bella because, duh, he's not a vampire and I've known him before that =P. Actually, now that I think of it, I couldn't really remember how it all started. All I remembered was we were assigned to sit side by side. I got stuck with him for the rest of the school year! We began talking about ourselves, we got comfortable enough to play jokes and stuff like that, then before you know it, shazzam!, I was falling for him. Only I wasn't really aware of it that time. If it weren't for my big mouth(sorry!^^) BFF, I never would have realized that. She was also the one who told me that he might have secret feelings for me as well. I never really tried to talk to him maybe because I was afraid to lose the friendship or I was afraid of being hurt once again. I was hearing rumors that he liked me too. In fact, he showed tons of signs that he DOES like me. Christmas party, Valentine's Day, Alumni luncheon, even our everyday lives. I couldn't forget those. Most especially our prom night. That was the last that I've heard of him - rather the last time I've seen him. I could feel the tension. Our friends, they're such jerks(sorry again ^^) they made us sit together... That moment, I could really feel he wanted to tell me something, yet somehow he couldn't. Maybe because too many ears were eager to listen. We just stared at each other, smiling. We said nothing. For the next three months or so, I've been waiting for him to say something to me. Now, our roads are totally separated. We go to different colleges, we barely have any contact. Maybe it was my fault as well since my stupid cellphone was broken and I had no cellphone for more than two months! My parents wouldn't get me a new one coz they insisted that I could get it fixed. Throughout all the time, I had almost forgotten him. I had given up on waiting. Until this day that I've read Twilight. Most Twilight readers would consider the Biology incident(you know, when Bella fainted at the sight of blood - I'm hemophobic as well) rather romantic, but I was crying all throughout that scene. It reminded me of him, how he'd always tease me for what if I saw blood inside the classroom, what'd happen to me. But I've always known that behind that teasing is concern. I just know it. I'll probably never forget him at this point, but I do have a life. We may not end up being together, but I sure did have a piece of my own Edward ^^

September 7, 2008 EDIT: My BFF read this blog, or rather I read it for her, and she thought it was romantic XD Yeah, I know I weren't supposed to share this site to anyone I know, but I trust my BFF ^^ Anyways, I have finished reading Twilight and New Moon. Now, I can truly make a comparison of Bella's life and mine. You know for a while, when I was reading the books, I felt that it was all destined to happen. I had so much things in common with Bella(hmm.. I'll probably make a blog about it!) that I felt like Ms. Meyer actually based Bella's character on me O.O Very crazy of me to think that.. Oh well..